its been awhile..........

since i've posted in here...first got so depressed over tig i decided to stay away from this because it seems to be my 'outlet' for grief....then i finally got a job...now its not what kind of job i had hoped for, but its a job...and i work 3rd shift, and last week was my first full week and i had to do overtime by working friday night,,,so saturday night i was off and tonight back to work!! i am soo worn out by the time i get home i sleep til its time to go to work again..i guess i'm an injection mold operator? i simply take the pieces that are made and trim whatever or add brackets or whatever and package them up...its an easy job so far, but boy is it hotter than heck and i move alot!! i've lost 8 lbs in my first week,,,mostly because i only eat a yogurt on my lunch break....its so hot i don't want anything but cool...i was drinking a lot of mountain dew and now don't like it so finally gave in the other day and started drinking water...which i still don't like but it tastes as bad watered down as it does to start with!!lol...still miss my Tig very much...and the past few days Mr Husband has been a total asshat...which makes me miss Tig even more because he was my buddy and gave me loves ....now its just me..................off to take a nap for work tonight..........miss you so very much Tiggerboy....life sucks without you:(

more the same

am i starting to sound too repetitious?! yes its more of the same,,,staying awake all night, crying every now and then, crocheting like usual...a boring life?! well, i was awake til 1130 yesterday morning, then slept til about 6pm and now i've been awake since then...yesterday morning i decided to surprise hubby with breakfast, and while waiting for it to get done i went out on the deck to check the koi pond....last week he took the net off of it and i worry the crane will show up again...for over a year we had a big long legged bird out there early in the mornings munching down on our koi:( i'm worried he'll discover we no longer have the nets over the pond and come back for more seafood delight! while out there i saw something move through the corner of my eye, and looked over towards Tig's grave...there was a mommy and two baby kitties 'playing ' on tig's grave!! one kitty was up on one of the poles!! i knew there was a mama and babies somewhere out around our yard but i hadn't seen them in a few months...i don't think she really is a stray but is our neighbor's cat, but she doesn't keep her indoors nor very good care i don't think!! did my errands....made jeep payment, stopped by goodwill to see if i could find any broken up beads or jewelry or something like that for my crafting...got a couple of baby einstein vhs tapes that look like they've never been played...so when i'm babysitting grandbaby/s i have something to entertain them! stopped at the grocery store for hamburger buns...came home, dropped everything on the steps, and went to bed!! i finally checked the mail about 2 this morning...got two RAK packages from my ravelry buddies...one is a bunch of baby patterns and the other some nice yarn!! also got a sympathy card from one of Tig's vets, Dr Riggle....of course that made me bawl...........i sure miss him..........so now that its about 5am, i finished unloading and loading the dishwasher and washing a bunch of dishes by hand...i'm gonna go take a shower and go to bed........but i doubt i'll fall asleep for a few hours! sweet tigger baby kitty...i miss you and will always have you in my heart...i love you my baby boy.......................