Thursday, April 18, 2013

wow, its been forever since i blogged!!  no excuse, especially since i'm online daily and quite a bit!  but, in all fairness, i'm mostly online on my favorite 'social' site, Ravelry.  A whole heck of a lot has happened since the last time i jotted in here...almost like Groundhog Day...seems like i keep waking up to the same scene over and over again!! but.....its 'late',,,,perhaps i'll remember to 'jot' the rest of the story later on tonight...beings its already morning and time for me to get a few hours of sleep:)

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

bad bad blogger

well, i admit it, i'm a bad bad blogger.....the last 6 months or so was just so icky....i mostly didn't want to exist, but had to....thankfully thanksgiving came....because my hubby spending it alone made him think, and, as he said, 'pull his head out of his arse'.....and the first week of december he came back home! am i happy? of course...things are better, except for his pain...samantha and josh got their own place the same weekend john moved back home! i miss little Bailey kitty, but he's their kitty:( we were going to go buy two kitties at the pet store, but the more i think of it the more i don't think its a good idea...i still miss tigger so much...i don't want to go through that pain again of losing a pet....
i finished a medical transcription course, so now i have that and medical coding training, not that it will do me much good...most jobs that are out there want someone with at least one year's experience...meanwhile, i spent today 'powerkritterkreating'!! finished up putting together a bunch of kritters, now they are in need of embellishing and then off to my etsy store!!
in fact, its time for me to go get busy!! i'll try to post here more often...at least for now there is no sadness to post, and i hope that it stays away for a longggg longggg time!

Friday, October 30, 2009

and life is still going on....

well, i haven't been blogging because quite honestly life has been so sucky....my husband left me sept 2 quite unexpectedly....and yes i still was and am grieving over tig and i always will....managed to get a job briefly this month but it made my vertigo so much worse...the day i chose to quit was the day my daughter had been robbed at gunpoint in the early morning at her work...thankfully physically she is fine! on my way home from work(12 hours) i called my sis in idaho to see how my bil's mri was(and my mom was in the hospital with pancreatitis).....my sis asked if i was home so i knew something was up.....my mom had died...........they aren't having a funeral or service...they had her cremated....perhaps a service at a later time...
and hubby came over yesterday to get some of his stuff....i feel alone like i've been abandoned...i hope he gets back to counselling and realizes family is more important than anything....i know i am going to keep going to counselling...someone needs to help me keep my brain from getting overly tangled!!
i still kreate kritters...went to our local fiber festival this weekend which is everyyear and a lot of people loved my kreations...am thinking of doing up a website...but for now i'll stick with etsy...and i need to get busy as this is my only income for now beings hubby has the funds he earns going to his own account somewhere?!! meanwhile.....life still goes on............and tigg kitty mama misses and loves you....and i know you are protecting me!:)

Sunday, September 6, 2009

really been awhile!

and right now life is probably the suckiest of all! first my job was going great, and i actually enjoyed it...lost 12 lbs, went down a size in jeans and top! so i figured i'm getting free gym membership...my face usually sweats alot but i have long thick hair i wear in a bun on top my head so that kinda blocks the heat in! anyways, a couple saturdays ago we had to do mandatory work...inventory and cleaning, because some bigwigs from navstar were coming in...my shift got the cleaning duty...but not inside like i thought, instead, outside in the parking lots and yard...apparently that place doesn't have a warehouse so everything is stored in boxes and bins outside...so we had to clean up old crap, remove things from the waterdrenched cardboard boxes they are in, etc...well, i wasn't happy about it but i worked with my shift and others...and wasn't too worried about the weather..it was 7am and overcast...but by 11am it was sunny and getting hot...and i'm on two meds that i am not suppose to work in prolonged sunlight....so i told one of the people that was sort of in charge i thought....i was trying to find a shady place to work and he said there wouldn't be any.....
soooo.. i went back to work...we had lunch break and the bosses(ok, the operations manager and plant manager and a couple others) served us kfc, and of course i got the looks like i was a leper or something! back to work...then break at about 215...thats when the safety officer came to me and said they were gonna send me home beings i wasn't suppose to be in the sun....this is only 4 1/2 hours after i told them!
so i get home and look in the mirror and boy is my face red!! sunburnt and hot i suppose...i was pretty much fine the next day and went to work as usual sunday night...monday night again worked as usual, except my supervisor asked me if i wanted some overtime...heck yea,,,so i stayed and worked...ended up working almost 12 hours!! boy was i sore and tired when i left there, but i had to go make a vehicle payment, pick up soninlaw, and then went to the grocery store to get my yogurt and drinks for work!! got home, got a shower, and about an hour after i fell asleep the phone rang...it was adecco, the temp agency i was working through....
apparently the operations manager, gene, thought that maybe the work environment wasn't safe for my health so asked them to release me from my contract! omg was i soooo pissed.......what the heck...gerald the adecco guy who hired me out told me to not worry...but i couldn't work til he got ahold of the hr person there, and she was due back wednesday from vacation...i told him the big wigs from navstar were due in wednesday so there was no way he would hear anything...he didn't, til friday...he called me and told me it was a done deal, they still felt it was best for my health..!! i had even gone to adecco wednesday and showed gerald my face and he said he couldn't see anything wrong!! then he said trust him that they trust his judgement of character...ha,,,i still am unemployed now!! what a sucky thing...
personal life is just sucky right now...but i'm thinking positive which i think is positively stupid of me!! and i still cry for and miss tigger kitty a lot....sweet hugs my tigger baby...someday i'll be with you again!

Sunday, August 23, 2009

its been awhile..........

since i've posted in here...first got so depressed over tig i decided to stay away from this because it seems to be my 'outlet' for grief....then i finally got a job...now its not what kind of job i had hoped for, but its a job...and i work 3rd shift, and last week was my first full week and i had to do overtime by working friday night,,,so saturday night i was off and tonight back to work!! i am soo worn out by the time i get home i sleep til its time to go to work again..i guess i'm an injection mold operator? i simply take the pieces that are made and trim whatever or add brackets or whatever and package them up...its an easy job so far, but boy is it hotter than heck and i move alot!! i've lost 8 lbs in my first week,,,mostly because i only eat a yogurt on my lunch break....its so hot i don't want anything but cool...i was drinking a lot of mountain dew and now don't like it so finally gave in the other day and started drinking water...which i still don't like but it tastes as bad watered down as it does to start with!!lol...still miss my Tig very much...and the past few days Mr Husband has been a total asshat...which makes me miss Tig even more because he was my buddy and gave me loves ....now its just me..................off to take a nap for work tonight..........miss you so very much Tiggerboy....life sucks without you:(

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

more the same

am i starting to sound too repetitious?! yes its more of the same,,,staying awake all night, crying every now and then, crocheting like usual...a boring life?! well, i was awake til 1130 yesterday morning, then slept til about 6pm and now i've been awake since then...yesterday morning i decided to surprise hubby with breakfast, and while waiting for it to get done i went out on the deck to check the koi pond....last week he took the net off of it and i worry the crane will show up again...for over a year we had a big long legged bird out there early in the mornings munching down on our koi:( i'm worried he'll discover we no longer have the nets over the pond and come back for more seafood delight! while out there i saw something move through the corner of my eye, and looked over towards Tig's grave...there was a mommy and two baby kitties 'playing ' on tig's grave!! one kitty was up on one of the poles!! i knew there was a mama and babies somewhere out around our yard but i hadn't seen them in a few months...i don't think she really is a stray but is our neighbor's cat, but she doesn't keep her indoors nor very good care i don't think!! did my errands....made jeep payment, stopped by goodwill to see if i could find any broken up beads or jewelry or something like that for my crafting...got a couple of baby einstein vhs tapes that look like they've never been played...so when i'm babysitting grandbaby/s i have something to entertain them! stopped at the grocery store for hamburger buns...came home, dropped everything on the steps, and went to bed!! i finally checked the mail about 2 this morning...got two RAK packages from my ravelry buddies...one is a bunch of baby patterns and the other some nice yarn!! also got a sympathy card from one of Tig's vets, Dr Riggle....of course that made me bawl...........i sure miss him..........so now that its about 5am, i finished unloading and loading the dishwasher and washing a bunch of dishes by hand...i'm gonna go take a shower and go to bed........but i doubt i'll fall asleep for a few hours! sweet tigger baby kitty...i miss you and will always have you in my heart...i love you my baby boy.......................

Friday, July 31, 2009

two weeks

......since Tig passed away.....i still have crying spells but not as often, well, at least i try to tell myself its not as often.! my sleep schedule is still really screwed up...i've been awake now since about 3am...its about 11am...i've been busy working on things for ebay and my etsy store..i've decided to stop spending so much time doing online job applications because it hasn't done any good...my interview a few weeks ago i thought was good, but i didn't get the job...sooo, i decided to get more things made for my etsy store(winter is coming,,,hats/scarves....inexpensive homemade nice gifts!)...i actually crocheted a couple pairs of earrings this morning that i'm going to sew a bead in(next ones i'll actually do beading in them) and then put them along with a hat i made last night and two furry scarves in my etsy store, and i've been embellishing a lavishly ribbon embroidered rose beary for ebay...i was doing good,,,then the phone rang..........it was Tig's vet...wanting to know if Tigger was still with us........i said no, he passed away two weeks ago today...he then gave condolences and asked if he died at home...i said yes about 1115 pm...then i started to cry, and he said he knew we had done all we could for tigger,,,and i thanked him and.........cried.........now i've been up long enough for a headache to develop, so i'm gonna go try and get a couple hours of sleep....then wake up in time to get some errands run...and more crocheting...maybe even find another path into my craft room!! yesterday hubby and josh(future son in law) built a brick enclosure around tig's grave, then topped the grave with cement and a stepping stone in the middle of it that i had purchased right after his death...it looks really nice...eventually either i or hubby will do a woodburned 'headstone' for it,,,when its not so fresh and painful to think about.......tig mama misses you and loves you forever bunches...............