Thursday, July 23, 2009

another day, another tear.........


well, i still haven't got the hang of this blogging thing....haven't decided if its a public diary, journal, open letter to life! i'm doubtful anyone even knows its here! heck, i don't know how to let anyone know its here! i know, use common sense, but lately common sense has left the building and i'm still here...
i'm still having trouble dealing with my baby Tigger Kitty passing away last friday....i burst into tears unexpectedly when he suddenly appears in my mind! He became sick last month...and was diagnosed with chronic renal failure...so hard to comprehend how an indoor kitty that has not ever been sick in the 9 years we had him suddenly becomes so ill!! he was in the hospital for 3 days and we brought him home with the task of giving him an iv of fluids everyday forever....a task we gladly took on because he was so much part of our family....and he seemed to be getting better....until about 1 1/2 weeks ago, it all started again...the vomiting...we tried so hard again to keep him going....my sweet daughter sam helping me to try and force feed a little bit of food into tig each day...but by friday (7/17) it was obvious he was not going to get better...after his iv he suddenly wasn't able to walk....and that is all it took...we made the hard decision to have him put down....and i cried all day knowing what lay ahead..it was scheduled for saturday morning.....
but...i decided that i was going to have the vet do whatever he could to keep tigger alive....and i placed tig on our bed with his blankies....and constantly went downstairs to love him, and cry, and love him more.....
and then i decided to go get him to take him out on the deck for one last time....he always loved laying out on the deck....but this time....when i walked into the room, his eyes didn't move....just a stare....
i won't go into the details but it was his last moment of life.....we took him to a local animal hospital to have him put down or be sure he was gone....and he was......
so now my sweet Tigger Kitty watches down on me....he has a spot where his body is buried, but his spirit and soul are gone...i picture him frolicking around with our pets Snyper and Mandy and Angel kitty....who left us long ago....and i bet my dad is letting him curl up on his lap while he wets his fishing line!!
so i cry, unexpectdly, out of the blue, for my best friend tig....
for now its hard....i know it will eventually get easier...i hope it will get easier....but now.....i cry........
with much love forever to you my sweet Tig..........

2 comments:

  1. Hugs! Losing furry kids is hard.

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  2. thanks hon...yes it is....this is the 4th we've lost over the years but i do believe he is the most painful to let go....

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